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Post by sanne on Jul 29, 2009 3:48:11 GMT -10
Guess she was forced to kill her friend OR it was an MI5 rule in case things went wrong......My bet would be on the 1st.....But again she's having H doing the hard work. How difficult this must be, Mich, you really have to start doing something by yourself instead of having H doing all the digging and guessing. This is not the way how you should solve this and bring him back home. Sandra
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Post by margaret1234 on Jul 29, 2009 3:50:19 GMT -10
Well done Horatio, you have broken through Mich's defence barrier where no one else has been able to before, and yes the worst has to come. Only you could have done this, but will it make things better or worse for a while, as at the moment I cannot see how her temper can still be as a result of something she went through 15 years ago, dreadful as it was if she did kill her friend. Yes, she is most certainly feeling guilt and has depression at times, but does this cause the anger that can so often be directed at Horatio. They say you always hurt the one you love, so I guess this could be the case. If, so, then I feel very sorry for Horatio. Great chapter Lucy. Margaret
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Post by pinkyster on Jul 29, 2009 4:12:56 GMT -10
OH my, finally Horatio is getting a little closer to helping Mich. So why did Mich kill her friend? What's going to happen when or if she can reveal why? It's a good thing Horatio is such a great CSI, Mich isn't making this easy for him. But he certainly does have the patience!
Jen
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Post by Dr. Anna McBreadle on Jul 29, 2009 7:43:59 GMT -10
so Mich killed Sasha!?!? there had to be reason to do it, she wouldn't killed her best friend out of malice, would she?? my guess would be that the prison guards forced her to do it for some reason! its a good jobs Horatio has the patience of an angel, most people would have given up already! well done Horatio for keeping it going! maybe this will help Mich to heal, she's held this inside herself for all of these years and not being able to tell anyone must have eaten away at her! great chap lucy! luv sam x
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Post by NV Oracle on Jul 29, 2009 8:35:17 GMT -10
Terrific chapter, Lucy.
I just hope that by revealing what happened all those years ago, that maybe Mich might be able to move on, although judging by her demeaner in SAP, it sounds like maybe she was able to.
Even though H has had to play '20 Questions' in order to get her to talk, she is able to get parts of the story out.
Great chapter, Lucy. Can't wait to see what happens next.
Your friend NV Oracle
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Post by lucymalta on Jul 30, 2009 3:12:22 GMT -10
Well as Margaret says.... Will it make things better or worse?
All I can say is.... Remember the expression.... It's always darkest before dawn....
Lucy
Chapter 13
Mich was crying. Not a soft quiet sob, or screams of rage, but heartbreaking tears of pain and fear that seemed never ending. Tears that had been locked away for a long time, tears that represented the pain that Mich had been carrying.
Horatio sighed. He had deliberately kept contact to a minimum, just a touch to a hand or shoulder to reassure her. Never anything more until he was ready to speak of his decision to return to the barn.
Mich cried. Horatio tightened his grip, trying to give her the comfort she needed for the moment. Hoping that he would be rewarded with the story Mich did not want to tell.
For a moment Mich became calm in his arms and he sighed as the tears died away. Maybe now she would talk. He was just about to speak when he felt her tense up and try to pull away.
“Mich.”
“Let me go.”
Her voice was hard, with an edge of steel. Horatio was startled by the change and released her without realising. As she looked up at him Horatio swallowed. Part of him had always wondered how she could have been an assassin, killing people in cold blood. Seeing Mich as she now stood in front of him removed any doubts from his mind.
Her eyes had turned a pale ice blue, narrowed in anger, her face a mask. Mich’s muscles were taut underneath her skin, like a predator about to jump on its prey. As he looked at her, a chill passed down his spine, he was no longer looking at the woman he loved, but had come face to face with her alter ego. Derek had been right, the Wolf was a different person, fighting for control of a body it shared.
For a moment he wondered why MI5 had not picked up on the problem when he remembered that Derek had told him that the organisation had been short of agents. Had they deliberately chosen not to see what was happening to her?
He now understood so much more. Mich was afraid to bring up the past, knowing it would awaken the dark side of her nature, a side she tried to block from her everyday life. The frustration and tension it had caused in her own mind caused the anger that had driven him away.
He noticed her fingers flexing as if anticipating a fight and took an involuntary step back to try and diffuse the situation. Horatio’s mind was racing, what the hell was he going to do? Mich’s whole stance indicated that she was heading for trouble, but how was he going to stop a Wolf?
Mich moved first, walking towards the door. Horatio corrected himself, she didn’t walk, she prowled, moving confidently but silently toward the door. He called her softly, “Mich. Don’t.”
Mich almost ignored him, the only sign that she had heard him, a slight glance back over her shoulder as she hesitated before continuing to the door.
“Where are you going?”
The return answer was half purr, half growl, “I have work to do.”
“The streets are different here Mich, you don’t have the info you need.”
Mich spun to look at him, an intense look on her face, her voice was soft, quiet, Horatio wasn’t sure what worried him more – the calmness that had come over her, or the deadly look in her eyes.
“Oh, but I do Horatio… From you. There are those who control the streets from prison, those you cannot touch due to their positions in authority. Those that escaped from you on a technicality. Those that you have wanted to see face justice, but that got away from you.”
She came close, gently placing her hand on the side of his face, “They cannot escape from me. Justice will be served. I will complete what you have started. I will make sure that those who got away from you will never hurt anyone else again.”
Horatio’s blood turned cold, he needed to get Mich to return back to her normal self. He continued to talk calmly, “and what happens when I have to come after you Mich? A pardon will not help you this time.”
“You cannot catch me Horatio, and you will have no proof.”
Horatio stood his ground as Mich turned for the door once again. “You’ve just given me proof. You’ve told me what you are going to do. I can match any bullets you use to your rifle and your Glock.”
Mich gave a hollow laugh, “You really think I’d use my old things?”
“I’ll open the old case, get your DNA from the file, get a warrant to get a comparison from you. Hell… I’m Amber’s father, Kyra’s legal guardian. I can get their DNA without a warrant – show how closely it matches yours…”
Mich’s eyes flickered for a moment, Horatio spotted the hesitation before she stepped towards the door. He pressed home his slight advantage, his voice firmer and stronger, “what do I tell the girls when they put you away Mich?”
“Do I tell them about your past? Do I tell them about the people you’ve killed?”
Mich froze in place and Horatio knew he was winning, his mind recalled the day Mich had been able to start talking, how she had admitted she needed help to control her anger. He realised that if he could pull her out of her frame of mind now, it would be a step on the road to recovery.
For a moment he felt helpless as her hand reached for the door handle, then issued the order. “Don’t you dare leave this room Mich.”
She paused, but the weight of her hand pushed the handle down, caused the door to open slightly. As she straightened up, Horatio had one last chance.
“You walk out of that door Mich, you walk away from the girls.” Mich half turned and he could see the confusion on her face, saw her about to speak, her emotions in turmoil.
“You walk away Mich and you walk out of my life. I never want to see you again.” His words, spoken with strength and feeling hit Mich like a blow. She paused, her eyes becoming unfocused, head dropping. When Mich looked up Horatio saw the change of eye colour to a darker deeper blue before she slumped to the floor, head in her hands.
“Oh God Horatio… You see what I’ve become? Hunting for retribution placed as a higher priority than my own children, my own family… What kind of monster am I?”
Warily Horatio walked across the room. He had now seen how quickly Mich could change and hesitated for a moment, wondering if he should continue to push Mich for answers. Taking a deep breath, he decided to go on. At the moment he had an advantage – but knew it might not last for long.
“Why do you need retribution for something that happened nearly twenty years ago Mich?”
As Mich stood up, he noticed that her alter ego had returned, though it was now under control. “I have to pay for what I did, for killing Sasha… The only way is to serve… Justice is a hard master. One day my penance will end.”
Horatio swallowed now understanding what drove Mich on. He himself suffered from the same burden, the need to pay for what he had done. The only thing was, he knew why he was paying, but what was Mich’s reason. A slight movement drew his thoughts as Mich sat on the end of his bed, a powerless look on her face.
“I can help you.”
Mich lifted her right hand and rested it gently on his cheek. The look in her eyes so tender Horatio was stunned for a moment. The helpless whisper came back to him, “I know you can, but I don’t want to hurt you again. What happens if I lose it another time? Drive you away…”
“It doesn’t have to be that way Mich, in three days I’ll be out of here.” Horatio’s voice was soft, but strong, “We can talk about what happened to change you. Is talking about it what scares you?”
“Just thinking about it scares me Horatio.” Mich’s hand rested on the end of the bed, Horatio’s hand enclosed her own, re-enforcing his words.
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Post by pinkyster on Jul 30, 2009 3:28:46 GMT -10
Very nice chapter. Glad to see Horatio was able to stop her. Seems he has the power for now, but how long can he hold onto it? Glad to see Mich letting him in again and trying.
Jen
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Post by Dr. Anna McBreadle on Jul 30, 2009 3:56:13 GMT -10
i could imagine Horatio being worried for his own safety here as Mich changed to her alter ego! at least Mich now acknowledges that she has a problem, that is the first and most important step! now lets hope Horatio can help her through this! great chap lucy! luv sam x
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Post by margaret1234 on Jul 30, 2009 4:08:27 GMT -10
So Horatio had the same thought as I did a few days back, why was Mich allowed to continue in her line of work. Bad judgement. Just look at the way she turned on Horatio here, totally out of control. He certainly did not ask for that. Mich the man is trying to help you. Killing everyone in sight to settle cases that concluded unsatisfactorarily for Horatio, is certainly no way forward. I am so glad he gave her an ultimatum. Confess all now MICH, otherwise you are going to lose him and the children, he will make sure of that.
BTW....when I comment, I keep all thoughts of S&P out of my mind.
Margaret
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Post by lucymalta on Jul 30, 2009 4:56:34 GMT -10
Hehehe.... But I bet it's not easy Margaret....
Lucy
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Post by NV Oracle on Jul 30, 2009 8:27:52 GMT -10
Oh, no. It's not easy, Lucy. I'm also trying to keep all thoughts of S&P out of my mind when I give my thoughts on this one.
That one was scary. I'm glad that H was able to stop her from going out that door, but he wasn't bluffing either. To see H fight fire with fire was a little unnerving, but it definitely made since. To get her to stop and think about what she was doing, for the sake of the girls, the only other important things in her life.
Hopefully, now that the truth is out, H will be able to help her, so that she can move on with her life, with him, and the girls.
Great chapter, Lucy. Can't wait to see what happens next.
Your friend NV Oracle
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Post by sanne on Jul 30, 2009 20:09:53 GMT -10
I think it's time for Mich to realize she'll loose everything if she doesn't talk to H, doesn't trust him. Sandra
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Post by lucymalta on Jul 31, 2009 3:15:39 GMT -10
So... Horatio knows what happened - and has seen how it affects Mich... But he's still curious about a couple of things..
Enjoy
Lucy
Chapter 14
“Sharing the burden makes it easier to carry.”
“You have your own burdens to carry Horatio, I know that, but you do not share them. You carry them alone. It’s not fair that you carry mine too. I cannot let you do that, it’s not fair on you.”
Horatio’s fingers interlocked with Mich’s prising them gently from the bed. Drawing her slowly towards the chair so he could sit down himself he gave her a wry smile, “It’s what I do Mich, but believe it or not, I do have help. There are those that may not know what burdens I carry, but their support and friendship helps me. As you have helped me…”
Mich’s eye’s widened for a moment, before her head dropped and she sighed. “You’re not going to give up on me are you?”
“No.”
Mich gave a soft smile, “Most people would have… But as I have found out, you are not most people. So what do you want to know?”
As Mich waited for him to get back into bed and relax, she sighed and Horatio saw the sadness and pain cross her face followed by the fear. The next moment he saw her take a deep breath and look up at him, eyes clearer than he had ever seen them, acceptance on her face, and a willingness to talk to him.
“Why does talking about things scare you so much?”
The question was a little unexpected and Mich struggled to find an answer, not because she didn’t want to answer, but because she was trying to remain in control of herself and wasn’t sure how to explain.
Mich swallowed, “because talking about certain things makes me depressed. I hate feeling that way which makes me angry and I cannot always control my anger. I start hitting out at people close to me to release it. With you around, I’d started to fight it, but it wasn’t enough.”
“and when your anger builds… You go looking for trouble.”
Mich turned pale, “How did you find out about what I did on the streets?”
Horatio gave a soft smile, “Your Dad told me. He always suspected what you did, but could never prove it. Never wanted to prove it.”
“He never said anything.”
“He understood that you needed the release, and you weren’t exactly going after ordinary people. I still don’t understand how you were able to work with Jack.”
Mich gave a soft smile, “Having Kyra changed me a little, I was more able to cope with things. I used to get depressed instead of fighting. I was able to work with Jack because of her. Robert had also shown me a better side of life.”
“While it didn’t help me to control my anger, I was a happier person, less prone to becoming depressed and angry.” Her voice softened a little more, “You and Amber have also helped, more than you realise.”
“But your anger has been increasing recently. Why?”
“I don’t know, the only thing I can think of is the stress of the barn. Some of the clients are…”
Mich’s voice had become hard, Horatio covered her hand with his own, “I understand. Maybe you should be more picky Mich – not just accepting anyone who comes along. Keep those that are worth training, not the hangers on.”
Mich gave him a helpless look, “I wish I could Horatio, but some of the hangers on pay more… If I lose them…”
Horatio sighed, “You lose too much money – and the stress doesn’t go away. If anything, it increases.”
Mich nodded, but said nothing. Horatio also remained silent seeing the vicious circle she was caught in. Studying her for a moment, he saw how tired she was, how the emotions of the last couple of weeks had slowly broken her down.
He took a deep breath, preparing himself for the last part, knowing it wasn’t going to be easy for either of them. “Tell me about Sasha.”
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Mich swallowed and closed her eyes. For the first time in her life she had been able to talk about parts of her life that she was the most secretive about, things that she had locked away inside. It was partly due to her need to be there for her girls, but mainly due to the man in front of her.
Having him in her life had helped her fight the depression and the anger of the past, but between her work at the barn and his sense of duty, they had little time for each other. The stress of unforgiving and demanding clients had caused her frustration to rise and Horatio’s long hours made her resentful of his job, causing the friction between them to increase.
Horatio watched silently and could almost see her mind working, see how Mich was trying to put things together. He knew she needed time, but could also sense that she would not back out. A look of anguish passed across Mich’s face, making him reach for her hand in reassurance. An attempt at a smile in return reinforced how difficult the next few moments were going to be. Horatio sat back as Mich began her story.
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Post by sanne on Jul 31, 2009 3:22:13 GMT -10
Finally H is getting somewhere........ Sandra
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Post by margaret1234 on Jul 31, 2009 3:24:50 GMT -10
Okay, so we are getting to the crucial point now. What does Mich have to say? Interested to know if this is going to be worse than we are expecting and whether Horatio is going to be able to cope with what he hears straight away, or will he now need some more space again. Great chapter Lucy.
Margaret
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