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Post by margaret1234 on Aug 14, 2009 4:19:36 GMT -10
Wonderful chapter Jess. Well, I guess this feeling of betraying Marisol was bound to happen the first time kissing and feeling happy with another woman occurred. The thing that bothers me was the fact he was drunk when this all happened. If, he still has feelings for Calleigh tomorrow, then I think it is okay for him to move forward in this direction. It is now 10 months since Marisol's death and I don't think anyone would feel ill towards him. I would have hated it had this only been a 6 month period that has elapsed.
Well he is really feeling a lot of pain right now........but, maybe he just needs to go through this guilt trip right now so that he can finally move on, and Calleigh will need to be strong now because I think he will try to fend her off for a while anyway.
Margaret
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Post by Dr. Anna McBreadle on Aug 14, 2009 8:52:14 GMT -10
poor horatio! Calleighs feeling good about the evening but Horatio is feeling very guilty. we will have to see what happens in the morning. i have a feeling Alexx will be involved at some point and will encourage Horatio. she'll tell him that Marisol would have wanted him to be happy. well, i'm desparately hoping so anyway! great two chaps! luv sam x
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Post by NV Oracle on Aug 14, 2009 9:00:05 GMT -10
Great chapter, Jess.
I agree, that first kiss with a woman was going to be a humdinger, once he realized what he had done. You don't have anything to feel guilty over, H. Well, hopefully, he doesn't punish Calleigh over it, but I think he's going to try to push her away, at least for a little bit longer. I'd prefer to have H recognize that his feelings toward Calleigh have grown from his friendship with her, and that he's not betraying Marisol by having them, but it's not going to happen, or at least not right away.
It's definitely going to be interesting to see what the fallout is from this.
Great chapter, Jess.
Your friend Oracle
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Post by gonsy on Aug 14, 2009 13:04:03 GMT -10
What a lovely chapter Jess! What a sweet scene.... ;D Thanks a lot, you made me happy again! And about his reaction feeling guilty...I think that it's absolutely normal and what we all would have expected from a loyal man like Horatio, don't you think so ladies? Gonsy
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Post by sanne on Aug 14, 2009 13:32:21 GMT -10
Can imagine the feeling of guilt, but it's not bringing Marisol back, H.......and she definatly would want for you to have a happy life with Elena and, if it comes around, with another woman to share your life with. Not just any woman, but a special woman.....and Calleigh is special....very special to you..... Sandra
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Post by jessica on Aug 15, 2009 1:41:40 GMT -10
Hey ladies, thanks a lot for you all of your reviews. Well, poor Horatio is very prone to guilty feelings, isn't he? Let's see what he makes out of them. The next two parts will be rather short (sorry for that) because I'm running out betaed stuff. I hope you don't mind though. Jess ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 12.1Nervously and unsure of what was to come, Horatio rang the bell and waited for someone to open the door. Last night hadn’t been a restful one. Sleep hadn’t come easy and when he fell asleep, he had had nightmares. Either the dreams had ended with Marisol in the delivery room, screaming in pain and suddenly there was the flatline beeping being heard, or he was standing at her grave and suddenly she was standing next to him, telling him that he had betrayed her memory and that she hated him. It was needless to say, that his conscience hadn’t improved but gone worse. Sighing he began to fiddle with his sunglasses and got more and more anxious because no one was answering the door. Calleigh was about to dry her hair, when she heard the bell rang. Surprised she looked up and wondered who her visitor could be. She had just stepped out of the shower a few moments ago, even though it was almost noon. Normally she was an early riser but today had been different. She’d been awake early, but instead of getting up, she had let her mind wander to the preceding night, especially the minutes in front of her door. Even though several hours had passed since their kiss, she had still felt the tingle on her lips. She had always suspected that Horatio would be a good kisser, but she had never expected it like this. Sighing, Calleigh shook her head to clear her mind and grabbed her gown, since she was only wearing her underwear. Quickly she put her hair into a messy bun and left her bathroom. In the hallway she heard the bell rang a second time, so she called that she was on the way. Whoever her surprise visit was seemed to be either impatient or very keen on seeing her. When she reached the door, she checked her appearance and hoped for the sake of the other that he wasn’t a salesman. There were only a few things Calleigh Duquesne really hated and being interrupted while her beauty care was definitely one of them. Standing on her tiptoes she looked through the peephole and was surprised and excited the same time. “Horatio?” she opened the door and could already tell that something wasn’t right. “I thought we will see us on Monday?” she joked and opened the door for him to enter. His mouth and throat had suddenly gone dry. He had expected her in some loose clothes, but not that loose. Seeing her in just a gown with wet hair was…his worst nightmare. Quickly he shut his eyes, trying to get certain images out of his head. Images, that weren’t his to have, especially not about a friend, a co-worker. But yet they were there and he could feel the panic rise again. “I uh...,” he stammered and entered the room. He needed to get himself under control. Badly. “Uh..you got a minute?” “For you always, Handsome. Would you like something to drink?” she asked and closed the door behind them. “Ah, no. I was just on my way to the Delkos,” was his short reply which made Calleigh not only stop in her way to the kitchen but also wondering why he was here then. “Ooookay, but I’m sure you’d like to sit down?” she asked hesitantly, because his demeanor didn’t make any sense to her. In actual fact he rather wanted to stand, but when he looked at her he decided to sit down on the couch. “Thank you,” he said sincerely and folded his hands in his lap. “You’re very welcome,” she grinned at his behavior even when she didn’t feel like it. Sitting down on her chair, she crossed her legs and looked at him expectantly. “So? What are you doing here, Handsome?” she asked him gently, fearing that one wrong word or tone could scare him away. “I..,” he took a deep breath and looked at her. “I came here to apologize,” he said matter of factly. “Apologize…,” she quietly repeated his words and was obviously confused. tbc
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Post by sanne on Aug 15, 2009 1:51:24 GMT -10
She's not going to like this.......and neither do I.....Of course I can imagine the feeling H, but again: you won't get Marisol back and you did nothing that betrayed Marisol's memory....You are just going on with your life and that's OK.......You have to, even if it's for Elena's sake. If you hurt Calleigh, you'll be hurt een more yourself..... Sandra
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Post by margaret1234 on Aug 15, 2009 2:45:39 GMT -10
What a lovely chapter Jess! What a sweet scene.... ;D Thanks a lot, you made me happy again! And about his reaction feeling guilty...I think that it's absolutely normal and what we all would have expected from a loyal man like Horatio, don't you think so ladies? Gonsy Yes, I do think so Gonsy. Well, I did say yesterday that he was probably going to fend Calleigh off for a while and that she would have to be strong. Seems like this is going to be the case. However, I may be totally wrong ;D But, he definitely still needs to work this out of his system and no one should hinder him from doing so at the moment, he is still very fragile. Push him too far before he is ready, and we could have dire results. If Calleigh truly loves him she will recognise this and play it a bit slow for a while, he will come round. But, much better he does it because his own mind tells him it is okay to move on to another relationship. Jess, don't mind the shorter chapters, just post when you can, will be here waiting. Margaret
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Post by gonsy on Aug 15, 2009 7:13:40 GMT -10
Oh boy....after the kiss Calleigh is in heaven and Horatio is in hell...what's going to happen now? Jess, love this chapter. ;D And don't worry, as Margaret said, long or short, we will be here waiting for next! Gonsy
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Post by Dr. Anna McBreadle on Aug 15, 2009 11:25:04 GMT -10
this is going to be difficult! its best to get this sorted before they go to work on monday! i get the feeling Cal will be disappointed by what he has to say! although i had to laugh at his reaction to Cal being in her dressing gown! great chap! luv sam x
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Post by NV Oracle on Aug 15, 2009 12:22:27 GMT -10
It definitely did not help, her answering the door in her nightgown, but I agree, Sam, his reaction was funny, that's for sure.
I don't think Calleigh will like what he has to say, either, but, hopefully, she will understand where he is coming from, and will let him have the time he needs to reconsile(sp?) what he's thinking and feeling.
Great chapter, Jess. Can't wait to see what happens next (be it short or long. LOL)
Your friend Oracle
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Post by pinkyster on Aug 15, 2009 14:34:30 GMT -10
I certainly don't like this and I know for sure Calleigh isn't. I just hope this doesn't push her away....
Jen
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Post by jessica on Aug 16, 2009 1:56:01 GMT -10
Mhm.. let's see if your idea concerning Horatio are right or wrong. Thanks a lot for your reviews ladies. This is one is also short.. sorry Hope you enjoy it nevertheless. Jess ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 12.2“Yes, I came here to apologize for my behavior last night. I had no right to treat you like I did. I’m very sorry, that things got out of hand. You have to believe me that I didn’t plan it like this. I don’t even know how this could happen, but please forgive me Calleigh. I had no right to kiss you. I wrong-footed you and took advantage of the fact that you were drunk. I don’t know if and how I can ever make this up to you again, but please believe me that I feel incredible sorry for that.” All Calleigh was capable of was blinking. His flood of words had struck her and she was literally speechless. Everything she could draw out of his little speech was the fact that he seemed to be very upset about the ending of their night out and he wanted her forgiveness. But how could she forgive him, when there was nothing to forgive? “Horatio I-,” she started but was immediately interrupted by him. “Calleigh, I know what you want to say…,” he said, but Calleigh highly doubted that. “I know you’re angry with me. I’m angry with me myself, believe me. I just..,” he struggled for the right words, but couldn’t find them. He had made a big mistake and now he was paying a high price for it. Calleigh felt like she had entered the famous Twilight Zone. Nothing, really nothing of what Horatio was saying made any sense to her. “Horatio…I don’t know what to say”, she said quietly and tried to gather her thoughts but gave him, unintentionally, a clue. “I know…and…and that’s why I should better get going,” he said and stood up quickly. The panic was rising again when he noticed a single drop of water running down her delicate neck and suddenly he had a lot of inappropriate thoughts. “I really need to go”, he said and almost fled out of her apartment. Calleigh flinched when she heard the door shut behind him and sat in her chair in utter disbelief. Horatio had been like a whirlwind. The one moment he had been sitting across her and the next moment he had fled out of her home, with profuse apologies and hadn’t given her any chance to show him her point of view. She felt run over, literally. And when she thought about his words, the fact that he was sorry about their kiss even though he had sounded so different last night hurt her deeply. She had been so sure that he reciprocated her feelings, or at least felt more for her like a friend, because his kiss had told her so. His kiss had been gentle yet aggressive, the perfect mixture. And to hear now that he was sorry about it and claimed that he had taken advantage of her, felt like a stab in her chest. She felt betrayed by him. He had made her the victim though she wasn’t and he had taken matters in his own hands and decided for her that it was all a big mistake. Without asking her about her opinion, without thinking about her feelings. Just like that. Like it had meant nothing and probably it hadn’t – for him. Crestfallen she let her shoulders slump and bit back a sob, this has definitely not been what she had been hoping for. Outside of her condo was Horatio already sitting in his car and rested his forehead against the steering wheel. His heart was racing, the adrenaline pumping in his veins. He had seen the hurt in her face, no, the anger he thought and he had been the reason for it. She would have probably told him the same tomorrow, so it was good that he broke the first ground. He was sure this had been the one and only right way to stop this. Though there wasn’t a ‘this’ anyway. At least not in his mind. No, definitely not. Calleigh would find someone else and why was he even thinking about it? He was a married man…well a widower but this didn’t change anything. He had no right to fall in love again, not that he had, but nevertheless. He had done the right thing. Yes. With a nod to himself he straightened himself up and started the engine. But why did he feel so sick now? tbc
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Post by sanne on Aug 16, 2009 2:16:11 GMT -10
Because you DID fall in love, but don't want to admit it. And there's nothing wrong with falling in love again, H, absolutely nothing. Or are all those widows and widowers from all around the globe, who did find new happiness wrong? Are they all betraying their late husbands and wives? NO, definatly not. They grieved for their loss and than opened their hearts for new love, new happiness......And that is waiting for you as well...just turn the car, drive back and appologize for what you just did. Or at least go back and give Calleigh a chance to actually SAY something and don't fill in the answers for her........ Calleigh, the best you can do is write him a letter in which you tell him how you feel about the evening and how it ended and also about how you feel right now, after his unexpected appearance and sudden leave again today. Sandra
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Post by lucymalta on Aug 16, 2009 2:36:41 GMT -10
FINALLY, I'm caught up... My muse is really telling me of (she wants me to work on R&R). This story is moving on well Jess... Poor H, his feelings really are all over the place right now... I'd go help him out myself if it would do any good, but it would probably make him miss Marisol even more.....
Lucy
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